who I am

Hi guys! So, I’m from Brazil and I have 17 years old.
So, I’m a little “confuse” about my sexuality… I know that I like girls, but I don’t know if I’m a bi or lesbian. Sometimes I think that I say “I’m bi”, for fear of knowing that I’m a lesbian…. Sometimes I say to myself that I’m lesbian and I’ll have courage to talk to my family, but not so easy, and my mom say to me that i’m so young to know that I want, and when I grow up if I have the same feelings, that’s ok, but now I’m so young to know what I want. I desagree… everyday I’m more sure that I’m a lesbian.
I “discovered” my feelings by girl when I was 14, I’d a boyfriend and met some guys, but not the same feeling when a kiss a girl for the 1st time.
My mom asked me if I’m lesbian (2 times), and I said “NO”… I’d a opportunity to say the truth, but I don’t know… she was a little bit hard when say, that I prefer not say the truth.
It’s so haaard to me, I’m feel sad sometimes and need talk to someone, only 3 friends know about my sexuality. I don’t know if I wait to be older to try really be who I am or say the truth to my family now, is very bad hide something to my family but in this case I think should do this.
I’m tired to see gays hiding or living a different life than we really want, to see everyone happy, but and our happiness?
So, that’s it… I’m so sorry to my bad english.
xxxox