Tracy on Episode 9!
Well, we’ve come full circle! First of all, thank you for letting us share our laughter and tears with you for the past nine weeks. It’s been an extremely cathartic experience, and I hope that there is somebody out there who has learned from all of our ups and downs. We’ve all grown from this process and if anything, hope that the message of EQUALITY resonates louder than all.
On a side note: I’m glad you all finally got a chance to meet my good friend, Michele Fleury (who you may also recognize from the reality show, CURL GIRLS!). She is who I have to blame for putting the Real L Word bug in my head. So, thank you Mich!
My storyline in this episode is pretty self-explanatory, but the one thing that I was not ready for was Stamie’s reaction to my Mom’s hesitancy. She has a very strong, funny, and magnetic personality, but the stress of having my Mom in town and not accepting her was a little too much for her to handle. It’s something she’s already been through and doesn’t wish to retread – which is understandable. For me, it was an exhausting couple of days of trying to please two of my favorite people. I was trying very hard to balance the task of being respectful to all parties and staying true to myself. Luckily, there was light at the end of the tunnel!! (And that light may have come with the help of a 2 ½ year old with a lollipop.)
Somehow, in all of this mayhem, I managed to turn 30! And believe me, I had never thought I’d be on a reality show when I was blowing out those candles! It’s such a milestone birthday and celebrating with an intimate group of friends and family was perfect! And for anybody that doesn’t know Misty Odell – please, please, please do – not only is she a great friend, but her music, and especially lyrics, are amazing! The entire night was incredibly memorable!
The best gift of all was having my Mom by my side and watching the joy on her face as she slowly let in and accepted my life. She was finally supporting 100% of me, and I couldn’t be happier! She’s made great strides (brought me to tears of joy with the Dautry scene at the California One Care PSA!) and is now asking about Stamie in most of our phone calls. She is a strong and inspiring woman, and although change can sometimes be scary, she seems to be handling it all with grace. It just takes time.
Side note: It was also a big moment for my Mom to say SE AGAPO POLI, which means “I Love You Very Much” in Greek, to Stamie. How cute is that?? Stamie is still convinced that my Greek Aunt fed her that line. All is going to be okay!
…And finally, thank you Showtime, for the 10 weeks of what felt like free therapy. You finally broke me down! I’ve learned that sometimes you just have to choose yourself, and that’s okay too.
To: Nikki, Jill, Whitney, Rose, and Mikey…..and of course, STAMIE! …….. It’s only the beginning! Xo
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my heart was warmed while watching not only the scene of dautry with you mother, but also you between your mom and stamie watching you friend sing. you looked truly happy. i'm glad this experience has been rewarding and has allowed you to grow. your story truly has been my inspiration. i sent you my story and i truly hope you had a chance to read it. thank you again for everything.
I have to agree with you Tracey this season of the REAL L WORD was a big eye opener for me. I have had many thoughts in the past several months that I am not worth anything and watching you Ladies on the show has shown me that we all matter in our own little ways. I will truly miss you all and I pray that you all are in Gods hands and he watches over every one of you. Love ya
SE AGAPO POLI. Truly beautiful. I commend you for being someone who reaches out, reconciles, and tries to unite people rather than divide them. I hope to see more of you in Season 2.
The scene with your Mom and Dautry was so cute. I can see that there is a strong family connection between you and your Mom and that family is so importent to you. Your story has been my inspiration too (I came out to my Mom few days ago :D]. Wish you and Stamie luck! I already miss you!!
(sorry for my english, I’m from Poland :P)
I was so pleased with this episode. It was sad that it was the last one, of course, but it made me so so happy to see your mom be so okay with you and Stamie being together. It was a beautiful thing to see. It seemed like she was having a really hard time with it prior to LA, so I was surprised how quickly she actually came around. I think you all handled it really well and I wish you all the best in the future. It's been a total pleasure following you and all the other girls for the past couple of weeks. Thank you so much.
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Truly brave of you Tracy to take part in a reality show and share such intimate. personal moments between you and your Mom. She seems like a sweet person like you are. I never did officially come out to my Mom, who is now dec'd. I just wasn't sure if I really wanted to or not. She was the best Mom, we were close, and I know she would love me no matter what, and I guess just knowing that was enough. These days, anyone who is in my life that I want to have any kind of relationship with knows that I am gay as I don't want to have anyone as a friend if I can't be honest with them about who I'm with, etc. One thing that surpised me abt me, I'm not what has been perceived in the world to be a "stereotypical" lesbian as I am feminine. Sometimes when I find out that a feminine woman is gay, it still sometimes comes as a surprise and I certainly know better, I know you can't definitively tell someone's sexuality by how they look or dress. Thanks to the L Word and especially the TRLW, these stereotypes will fade away somewhat. Wishing you all the best and hopefully season 2 will be meant to be…
I just wanted to say thank you and Stamie and the rest of the girls for doing the show. And also when I gave you my number it was for friendship and I was hoping you could give it to the rest of the girls to.I just need some friends to talk to thats it cause I don't have any.
Just watched this episode in the UK, I have to say my heart ached for you and I felt your pain. Hope you are all still going strong and things are a lot better for you, your mum and Stamie now. Your mum did well