The world in color
I walked through life hiding from who I truly was, never feeling comfortable in my own skin, never fitting in. I hid behind boys, never stared too long at the girls, even dropped a friend when she came out for fear the curiosity would consume me. I did what was right, what was expected and I married. I loved him but was not “in love” and I truly in my heart believe he wasn’t either. I had 2 children, the last was born with 2 hear defects and needed open heart surgery at 9 months old. This tested all that I had inside and made me see life differently. I suffered a major loss shortly thereafter and realized I had to own my feelings and be true to myself for once in my life. I hit the scene and found my now wife cindy. When I met her I knew what the world looked like in color. My family wanted to disown me and it was an uphill battle but it is now 8 years later and they have all accepted and moved on. Be true to you, in the end, you are all that matters.
Thank you lovely ladies for giving us a voice!
Jaye
Very well said! And you are right about owning your feelings and being true to yourself. It's an extremely liberating feeling when you accept who you are. You're being true to yourself and in turn, opening up your heart and mind to other experiences and loves in your life…. And you have two beautiful children to top it off! Sounds good to me.
Thank you for sharing, Jaye! It put a smile on my face tonight!
xx Tracy
that is a hopeful story for all of us who are still struggling… it's people like you who remind me that it is ok to be true to myself and that one day things will work out… thank you.
I liked how Jaye phrased "when I met her I knew what the world looked like in color" There was always something missing in my relationship with any guy, not matter how good looking, great person, they were. I had feelings for woman prob as early back as age 10, more emotional, not really sexual then, but it became frustrating as I became older not to be able to express my feelings physically once I realized what was going on. I am very happy in my relationship that I am in now with my girlfriend and nothing is missing, it's all good! It's in color!
Love your story:) Short and sweet. I'm so happy for you and your wife.