Thankyou!

Hello Tracy and Stamie!

I just wanted to thank you for sharing your life.

Watching your daily interaction with your kids and love you have for each other is refreshing and comforting.

I am a 24 year old confused girl. I’m from a less than exciting city about an hour away from Philly…been here all my life. I have always wanted a family of my own because I love my family so much, having one of my own was only natural. I just have never had “luck” finding a guy who I actually was excited to see or hear him say my name and it never made sense to me why, in high school my friends were crazy about guys and I was jus blah about dating. I didn’t get why making out was something anyone would do let alone get excited about it. I found myself thinking while some guy was kissing me, “and whyyy is this fun? I don’t get this *shrugs* but it’s what I’m supposed to do. it’s what he wants and what i Should want. maybe I’m doing something wrong” I found guys just didn’t do it for me in general and not cuz I haven’t found the right one. Only just recently did it occur to me, that girls might be what I want. I have yet to kiss a girl and test that theory. I’ve been scared to even admit to myself that I may want to be with girls. My very large family has many opinionated members who I love very much. Disappointing them is something I never want and some have let it be known that they are not fond of gay people. That doesn’t make it easy for me to even consider trying to be with anyone, or to wake up everyday and exist feeling like I need to hide myself or watch what I say to who and continue the farce that is my life sometimes. Not living up to their ideas/dreams that they have for me sucks.

Having kids is a big part of that dream. My dream of that happening almost died when I realized I don’t think I’ll ever find a man that will make me giddy to be with him and want to have his children. I know there are other methods of getting pregnant but I don’t want to be alone and prego. Seeing how you guys are with the kids and how easily your family seems to come together as if it were always meant that way makes me happy and gives me hope. I feel like I could maybe fall in love and start a family with the person I love regardless if it’s another woman. I don’t want to say anything to my family until there is a girl who I want to be with because it won’t be completely real to me/or worth the backlash until I find her. Sooo basically I’m like a little kid out in the dating world where everyone my age has passed me in experience. It’s an awkward time to start getting interested. Any ideas on how to help my awkwardness dissipate? Any advice would be greatttly appreciated. Thank you again for your humor and sharing your lives to help people understand n feel more comfy.