rough road…

i’m 19 years old from pasadena california, i always knew i was much more attracted to girls then guys, i just never got to experience what it was like to be with a girl, last year around halloween time, i got a part time job at a costume store…i started to “notice” one of my co-workers, she obviously gay, and i didn’t have a clue how to approach her… i had made friends with my boss named adam (FLAMING gay man), as did they, i started to tell adam about my interest in her, and he set it all up… he was going through some rough times with his roommates and was planning on moving up to washington with his boyfriend soon anyways, pizza and rented movies, and invited a few of us over who we all worked with, by the end of the night they had put me on blast saying i wasn’t gay and probably wouldn’t know what to do if a girl kissed me, im not too shy, but i was really embarassed and i didnt know why, long story short THE GIRL, ended up kissing me…and it was the most amazing feeling i had ever felt. unlike anything, hought “butterflies” idn’t really exist until that moment.few months went by, we talked, started dating, and then got into a relationship. meanwhile i was still living with my mom, (wo raised me and my siblings to be very opened minded) and her husband (who is very conservative)…they started getting weird about me having friends spend the night when they met her, like i said she was obviously a lesbian….they both agreed and let me know i wasnt allowed to have anyone over before 10am or after 10pm, and i wasnt allowed to spend the night anywhere…finally i hit my limit and told my mom i was gay…she told me i had 3 weeks to move out. i talked to my girlfriend about it and she was in a pickle of a situation, living with her dad at 24 and was ready to move out as well…so we started looking for a place together, and couldn’t find anything in the right price range…adam told us that him and his bf had a 3 bedroom house and we were more then welcomed to come stay up there in washington with them rent free!!!we started planning things and i bought the plane tickets, 3 days before we were supposed to leave she decided to let me know she wasn’t coming and was still in love with her ex and moving in with her… sob,sob,sob… i wanted to give up on dating….i thought i was DOOOMED. then all of a sudden a door opened up, my best friend who is 12 years older then me told me that she had an open room and wanted me to come live with her and her 3 kids. i did, and it was the best decision i have ever made…i’ve been living here for almost a full year, and every day with her and the kids, is a joy. they’re my new family and totally 100% accept me for who i am, i’ve dated here and there, but right now, im focusing on myself, and i don’t think i’d be half as happy as i am today if it wasn’t for her and the kids. i wish i could thank the costume store coworker everyday for making the decision she did, because i’ve never been happier and or loved myself more. moral of the story, love comes and goes, you just have to do you and love yourself, and everything will fall into place.