My story

My name is Kim and Im 21 years old and i live i Sweden.. this is my story.

I was 16 years old.. just started high school and thought i knew everything about myself.
When I was little i often fell in love with girls, i had crushes on my female teachers, friends from kindergarten.. even in snow white 🙂 (big disney-fan!)

anyway.. i just started high school and there was this girl in my class that was obviously SO gay. i remember my diary from that time.. i wrote that there were something different with her.. (i was just scared of writing the word gay hah). i spent pages describing her brown eyes, her hair, the way she smiled, her dimples. i started to write to her on the internet, i googled her.. wanted to know everything about her.. the usual stuff 🙂
eventually i told her that i was in love with her and it was the bravest and most scaring thing i have ever done. she took my hand when we were alone in school, looked at me and giggled, gave me little notes with hearts on.
one night she was out on the town drinking and called me, wanted me to come.
so i came, and under a tree she kissed me for the first time. i was going to write that it was my first kiss, but it wasnt.. at all. but it felt like it.. because every time i did something with a girl it felt like the first time. we dated for some weeks and she broke my heart, literally. later on (like two years later) we started to date again and were a couple for a half year. now im 21 and have experienced so much. I’ve dated a lot of girls, had a few girlfriends, got my heart broken again och probably broke a few too. Its so natural for me to be gay now, to kiss a girl, to be with a girl.. that i often forget that i was a beginner too back in the days. And sometime i can miss that, i dont have a lot of gay friends, i dont go to gay-bars so often etc. i usually dont feel like i have to have gay friends and that i have to go to gay-bars and places like that, but sometimes.. regardless of how long you have been out.. you sometimes just want to have a extra light on the gay part of you. talk to persons who can understand you in a certain way.
Now i have met the love of my life and Im thankful for her everyday. We have been together for 2 years now and recently moved in together.
Im so thankful for my life and im VERY thankful and happy to be gay. I hope that me being open with my sexuality wont just make me comfortable with myself and happy, but that it also will give other people the courage to come out.
Thank you for letting me tell my story.