I wish I could come out
I am Martha and 16. I wish i had a coming story out but i dont. I have nothing actually. I first realized i liked girls when one gay girl started talking to me and was so sweet to me and i realized i had feelings for her. I never had even thought about the idea of liking girls before i bet her, it was something much different than a guy had made me feel. I was in love with this girl. i snuck around and did things so i could see her. But all good things come to an end i broke down, i couldnt handle it and we broke up. Soon after we broke up i found out she had cheated on me so i told her everything was over and i couldnt be with her again. Well she went crazy and thought she would hurt me bc i hurt her so she sent a picture to people at my school of us kissing. That was the roughest time in my life. I tried to abuse alcohol and kill myself because i thought everything was such a huge deal. Well people at school forgot about it and i stopped with girls and started hooking up with guys and it wasnt me. In may i met a girl who i am currently in love with. It is by far one of the hardest things i have ever done. No one knows. Not one friend, not my parents. It kills me, i come home and sit in my room and cry because i have no one. I am to scared to tell anyone. I go to a crap school where people judge. My parents control me i am there one thing they have complete control over. The girl i love hates that i wont tell and gets mad at me because i wont. But i cant and i wont. I have no one. I really wonder when i will break because one day i am not going to be able to handle it again and it will result in bad consequences. I need advice i guess someone help me? talk to me tell me what you think i should do? Because i am almost at a breaking point.. The real L word has shown me its okay to be gay and that i can have a normal life when im older but can i?
Martha, first of all just know you are not alone. Being around people that don’t understand you or why you are gay really sucks. But I know I have found my outlet online, where if people want to judge me-then so be it, and if others want or need to talk-then I’m there. There are a lot of girls on this site that are awesome and would be more than welcome to stand by you when you need someone to talk to. So keep your chin up. Wish you all the best with you’re new found love. 🙂
well that new love is over, since i dont think anyone in this world is capable of being sincere and actually loving another person.
Martha Martha Martha 🙂
I use to be in a similar situation as you when i was 16
I feel like its only fair to share with you what got me through such times
and that was -> I looked up and started talking to the man above
that is how i got through and till this day i still turn to him whenever i feel alone or in need
I don't know if you believe but if you do then try that cause it does work & it does get better
If you are asking yourself why you at this time, let me answer that for you
–> This is what you call in your life times of trial
The aim is not to give up but live and breathe so that you may understand the lesson that are given to you on hand by the universe 🙂
Save your tears for days of joy
Tears are very precious Martha and it would be a waste to cry them away everyday to share with sadness
Save them for moments that are joyful and then share your tears with happiness 🙂
Now is a good time to think about your future cause although things seem impossible at the moment
Doors of opportunity have also opened in you world cause the world or should i say the universe is for ever balanced just for you
Refresh your mindset and start healing your heart cause at the moment you heart needs you
and its only you that can help it, if you want to know how to do, me tell you-> LOVE U
Give you all the attention and time you need, as-well as love yourself more than anyone else can love you at this time.
You will notice when you do this that you will naturally love those around you and they will return it back to you cause that is what you are sending out .What you give is what you will receive, so make sure when you give anything out that its for good and good will come back to you, maybe not now but trust me you will now when you have received 🙂
Live & Breathe 🙂
Live for the future and breathe for the now-> if you put these two things together in action they will awaken you
Bless 🙂