Doesn't do labels….

I don’t really know if this is a story worth sharing but here goes..

My road down this path started in year 9 of secondary school. I kissed and fell in love with my best friend. I remember our first kiss like it was yesterday; scary, intense and thrilling all at the same time. I actually had butterflies in my stomach. We had secret relationship that lasted 4 years. But our friends and families became suspicious at us spending so much time together (I would stay at hers all weekend and visit most nights after school). So she suggested I also date this boy who had been asking me out for ages. I didn’t really want to but the truth is I would have done anything she asked. So I did and we ended up in a relationship for almost 7 years. I knew straight away that I loved her but I also grew to love him.

Being in love with two people at the same time was really hard. I hated the constent lying but I have to admit, the sneaking around was kind of exciting. No one ever found out about me and her. Although, I have told a few people since. Those I have told have reacted by saying that I’m bisexual (arrghhhh)

The thing is…I am not straight, I am not a lesbian and I am not bisexual! I have always been annoyed by labels. I dont see the need for them and to be honest I’m a little surprised I am even doing this. I dont actively seek men/women, I’m open to love in whatever shape or form.

A couple of my friends know how I feel. They also know that I have been in relationships/had sex with people of both sexes. They have been brilliant about it to be honest, couldn’t fault them one bit. I have no intentions of telling my parents though (even though they have always suspected that I am gay). My dad recently told me that he would disown me if I told him I was gay. So I dont think thats a road I will be going down unless it is needed (i.e. if I’m in a relationship with a girl).

I’ve met some amazing people on here and have thoroughly enjoyed reading all your stories. I admire the strength you have shown and hope that in the future I might be able to do the same.

Thanks for reading. xx