comingout at 16

Name is Brigitte Deleon. 16 years old and a Lesbian

Recently i came out to my mother about three weekends ago on a friday night. Everyone else knew but her
i felt as if she was the toughest so i told her last. As her daughter i didnt want to hide or lie anymore from my mother.
My mother and i relationship was beginning to become strong and we was getting along well. I have known that i was different for
awhile but when i entered middle school i thought i was a freak because everyone had a image of boy and girl. I had boyfriends but i
couldnt feel the same connection i had with a female. I had my first girlfriend when i was 14 and i was very much into her and i knew where i belonged. She gave me butterflies and it felt natural.
Age 15 i was dating my ex Sharaye for about 5 months and we began going out for a year and two months. I was head over heels, i loved her so much
that she inspired me to come out to my brothers. Now that her and i are no longer together i been having a hard time dealing with the break up.
Friends are their but sometimes you need your family and that what i needed. Two days before i told my mother i had came out to my
brother Scott and officially told him that i was a lesbian and i broke up with a recent girlfriend. I cried and cried so much. He said it was ok
and that he still loved me. That friday when i told my mother i was scared but ready. She called me into her room to talk, while she was talking
i interrupted and said ” mommy remember Sharaye? “.
“well her and i dont talk nomore”.
” She wasn’t a friend”.
” She was my girlfriend”.
My mom asked my and why am i like this. She called me a faggot, and many words that made me feel cold and they were hurtful. She wouldnt look
at me or speak to me and she still doesn’t. I wanted her to understand
and love me for who iam. She wouldn’t look at me or speak to me and still dont. I felt as if i was being treated so wrong for something i couldn’t even control and had no choice in. She doesnt want me
in the house, she took all my close friends away from me because they were gay as well she thought they had turned me lesbian. My brother scott cried, i never seen him cry before but he did and he told me that he doesn’t accept it and called me the same names my mother did. Noone can
make you gay, lesbian, bisexual or whatever, You are born this way and so was i. They bring it up all the time but i have wonderful friends
that support me 100 percent. i will be 17 in Apirl 9th soon and i will graduate in 2012, i know there is a better life than being mistreated like the way we all have been going though. I been emotionally abused, and
gang up on, i have herd people in my school talk. I was in a dark place before all this but not letting that dark part eat you is a challenge but winning
is always possible. Even though my mother and family doesn’t want nothing to do with me and my life im going to come out just fine. I love who
i am and i pray to god that one day they will accept me for who i am and my life. Im a future nurse/cook and i hope to open my own tattoo shop one day.
Im loving and funny but also strong and willing. I thank god for everyday i get to see and wake up too. Suicide isn’t the answer and take this
coming from a 16 year old female same as your age and really understand that when you are patient and keep your faith nothing can hurt you and one day
it will be your day to be happy again. I love and support the LGBT community we are and have been through many hardships but we still are fighting for whats
right.

I am proud of who i am. I am a lesbian.